I am so lonely right now.
I have friends who care, but my other half isn’t there for me to lean on. That is the hardest thing- for me- to adjust to…Stephen’s not there to have my back. I turn to him all the time, still, and it’s always a surprise when he isn’t there.
I had my future planned. Growing old with the man I love. Now that’s been taken from me, I don’t have the wherewithal to plan a new one for myself. I don’t really care to. There isn’t much I do care about. I make it through the days, and do the things I need to. But I could NOT care less about any of it.
I miss my husband. All day, every day. I just really, really miss him. It’s sunk in, I think, that he’s not coming back. I don’t have the crutch of magical thinking anymore, and it really hurts. A friend sent me a link : Grief CAN kill you.
We think that what is going on is that even in previously healthy people are becoming very depressed and this has a powerful effect on the immune system.
I know that grief is kicking my ass right now. My body feels as if it has taken a pummeling – so I’m not at all surprised to know that there are studies to prove it.
I know that it’s possible to die of a broken heart, I don’t need scientists to tell me that.
Your husband is that big piece that perfectly fit into the jigsaw puzzle of life. The picture of your life is not the same without him…I’m so sorry…
Yes, exactly…he left such a big hole. Thank you.
All I can say is that I hear you. I hear the loneliness and the pain. It’s a valley right now. The way out isn’t easy and it isn’t fast. You will make it out. Don’t be hard on yourself. Your loss deserves grief. I am crying with you because I hurt for you.
Thank you for hearing me. The validation lessens the pain. I can be too hard on myself, but I’m learning that this has it’s own timeline…all I can do is grit my teeth and hang on.
I think I hear you loud clear……no, in fact I know I hearyou loud and clear….I remember mom saying this same thing many times before….life threw you a curve…and it knocked you off your feet…..take your time…but you will get back up and dance again…….love you
It knocked me off my feet, and now it’s kicking me when I’m down…I will come through this in more or less one piece, it’s just such a long hard road. Love u too.
Just feeling for you and wishing there were easy answers..
Oh how I wish there were easy answers! Thank you.
Wish I could say something to help… it doesn’t make anything easier, but you aren’t alone in your feelings! It will begin to feel a bit better – one moment at a time.
Thank you for taking the time to leave me some kind words.